Yeah, it's not for me.
I would LOVE to have a large family. But having to be the one who makes them... it's not working out so well.
I have a mostly healed crushed vertebra that still hurts like HELL!! If you've never broken anything, let me explain. Apparently, you use your back muscles for every single action the rest of your body makes. Seriously, not exaggerating there. I found that out when I was unable to use it at all! I have a split in my pelvis which I just learned COULD have been fixed but the doc at the time just gave me pain killers and sent me home. The pelvis issue prevents me from doing decent exercise and some days prevents me from walking altogether. I'm barely 4 months along. So as the baby gets bigger, which is inevitable, mommy enters deeper realms of HELL!!
So, aside from those pain levels, we have the ridiculous sensitivity to smells, to lights, to hallmark commercials, to too much of something I may LOVE, to too little of something I keep forgetting to buy, to my 2- and 3-year old's screaming and fighting 80% of the day, to sleeping, to country music, to my husband, to sitting for too long (like 30 minutes), to sex, to heat, to the sun, and to people who want to complain that THEY feel fat.
I'm a gemini, so I'm already hanging on a swinging door of drastically changing emotions. But now that I am pregnant, I can't even keep up with myself!! And I'm freaking cranky! I have no patience or tolerance for anything!!!! I piss myself off.
I also have a grave sensitivity to women who tell me how much they LOVED being pregnant. UGH! Go away! Not all of us are blessed with solid and constant delusions. I don't doubt there are many women out there who never have a single negative side effect throughout the entire pregnancy. But really, I don't want to hear about it when I am PLAGUED with them. Just lie to me and tell me you understand!!!
I love the outcome of being pregnant. I love my children and cannot wait to meet this busy little kicker. And if I could simply WISH the babies here, I'd definitely have more. But when the doc cuts me open to take out this wee one, my freaking tubes are getting tied!!